I am 21-years old and it seems like yesterday when I turned 18. “Time really goes fast indeed,” says Grandma. With 21 of experience living in this world, I have discovered that the beauty in the human person lies in self-acceptance. I mean let’s face it, do you remember the day when you said to yourself, “what just happened?” “Why did I do that, what was I thinking?” You tried your best to refrain from thinking about it. But today, we are going beyond circumstances, we are talking about forgiveness!
Forgiveness is the new beautiful.
Why do I say that? Because for the past 20 years I have been a victim of my life. I am of African origin, Burundian born, raised in a refugee camp. My life is pretty messed up—I thought. Having to come from a country where its beauty has been stolen and covered with brutality, anger, jealousy, envy, wars, resentment, resistance, and revenge—my brain has been wired or programed by such agony. It became what I call a “Mind Virus”, a negative way of thinking based on one’s experiences or circumstances that have taken place in his or her life.
I grew up in a Mtabila, Tanzania, refugee camp where my mind was limited to see, hear, touch, smell, and taste the same soup each and every day for over 10 years. I am not “Mr. Nice & Clean”, I make mistakes. But a mistake that was rooted in the mistakes I made was to think that whatever happened to me was because of what had happened before. I kept playing the blame game and sometimes I would catch myself thinking, “if I had a better life, I would have had a good life and did more things right.” This mentality did not help me because it was like following a cycle hoping that it would soon come to an end.
Despite all that has happened in life, when we forgive those who have wronged us which in most cases is ourselves and the rest, I believe we become so reborn that we can smell the new possibilities. Forgiveness is the new beautiful. Last time I checked, some people were still holding onto the past making it the reason as to why they cannot be beautiful and great. The worst thing you can do is to ignore the fact that this weight not only holds you back, it is also breaks it.
I seek knowledge, wisdom, and understanding. Unfortunately, all the information I was able to get access to had made me feel low, weak, crazy, backwards, powerless, defeated, and small. So low that I did not bother to take a glance at my life from a different angle. I had had enough and sniffing more would also destroy my last name.
I’m telling my story so people will know that I was not always messed up and backwards. I need the beauty that I once had, the beauty engrained in me, the beauty I was created with, the beauty I was given from God. I will share my life story as I live it. Simply because I have found that waiting for it to end might not let me finish it.
No more resentment, no more resistance, no more revenge it is time to reinvent! So forgive yourself and others. Gather your gears and Climb the Walls of Greatness with me.
Wilson Kubwayo, Inspirational Speaker
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